Thirty One

Delving too far into things can be a tricky business; I just need to start with one thing at a time. I’m not disclosing anything I just need to get a bit of it off my chest. This, to me, is a very difficult and tender topic. I wasn’t sure how to approach it so I decided to write a short poem. 

Growing up was tough, for I did not know,

Despite your tough exterior, you loved me so.

Everyone else always seemed to come first,

For your attention and affection, I had a great thirst.

An abundance of years you were perfect to me,

When I grew up, just like you I wanted to be.

I know there are times when we had great fun,

For the rest of the time though, the damage is done.

When I needed you most, you were not there,

The burden I held was too much to bear.

I will always have trouble with my own self-worth,

But to me you’ll always be the best one on earth.

It’s amazing how much people can change or even just have a wakeup call or reality check. I had to get this out there; it’s such a big thing to me. And at times it is can be intensely raw. The next one I wrote is of the now.

Out of the darkness you came to support me in my fight,

I needed help and here you are with all of your might.

You have been a great blessing in disguise,

It’s now clear to see the truth beyond your eyes.

I fight hard every day and you don’t leave my side,

Without your devastated face in my mind, I would have died.

Our relationship has grown bigger than anything I’ve ever looked on,

It will never be taken away, torn apart or stomped on.

This is a poem I wrote to show you I care,

And that I am appreciative right down to my last hair.

There is so much more for both of the poems but for now that’s plenty. If you read this, I love you always xxxxxxxxxx